“Thinking I’m a moron gives people something to feel smug about. Why should I disillusion them?”
Are you familiar with Charles Wallace’s character in A Wrinkle in Time? I’m completely fascinated with this book, especially the exceptional five year old.
I’m halfway through the book. I honestly picked it up at Barnes and Noble when they had it on display to advertise the new movie being released. I had no idea what it was about; I’d never read it before or seen the television adaptation. When I started reading it, I was immediately enthralled, if not by curiosity alone. The book starts out with Meg, and readers slowly learn more about her younger brother. I’ve since read the synopsis; I’m only to the part where the kids first arrive on Camazotz. I will be reading some reviews on Goodreads before I say anymore, since I haven’t finished the book yet, but I will definitely be reading the other books!
I actually wanted to write about the quote above. Dictionary definitions are very important.
- Smug is defined as “Having or showing an excessive pride in oneself or one’s achievements.”
- Disillusion is defined as “disappointment resulting from the discovery that something is not as good as one believed it to be.”
Why should I give anyone else a reason to doubt him/herself? Their opinion of me has nothing to do with how I feel about myself, so why would anything I say affect how they feel about themselves?
Their opinion of me doesn’t matter.
My opinion of them doesn’t matter.
Their opinion of themselves isn’t my business.
I listened to Luvvie Ajayi’s Ted Talk this morning, and it spoke to me more than any other personal development I’ve read (besides The Year of Yes because I felt that in my soul, Shonda). Luvvie’s Talk was titled “Get comfortable with being uncomfortable.” Here’s how I think these two things correlate:
We must say all the things that the angel on our shoulder has begged us not to say; we must distance ourselves from those who do not make us happy. We must chase our dreams; we must quit living in fear of what is unknown to us. We must put ourselves out there, in work, love, and family. We must find ourselves, and we must do all of this regardless of what others may think. I’m a writer; therefore, I write. Sometimes, I write thought provoking blurbs that make my own head hurt, and other times, I write about Crocs. No matter which direction I go, there will be someone out there to tell me I’m wrong, that I should stick to one theme and that I shouldn’t be so vulnerable. If dictating someone else’s life gives that person a sense of pride, so be it. Let them feel proud, but never let them break your pride.
Do your own thing. Be yourself. Speak your truth.
And never be ashamed of that.